The appointment went well yesterday. We really liked the new doc and felt comfortable with him. Afterwards I felt really encouraged and hopeful ... this morning I was tremendously discouraged.
The doc prescribed a new injectable medication called Enbrel to replace the one I'm now taking (Humira). He said he likes it a lot better than Humira. He said he's seen better results. I'll have to inject myself once a week (I'll continue taking MTX as well). He had some samples, so he gave me two pre-filled syringes. Yesterday was my injection day, so I took one last night. He sounded pretty confident that it would work.
I asked him how long it usually took if it worked, and he said most people feel results the same day. So I went to bed really excited about the possibility of waking up feeling so much better, but this morning I woke up just as in pain as ever. Could barely walk.
That was really tough.
Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe it'll still work, but this is so discouraging. I dreamt all night about waking up and not having pain ... and then I woke up.
I was (am) having a really tough day; I'm not dealing with all this very well. My pastor, Danny, unexpectedly stopped by the office and said he wanted to pray for me this morning. I'm not sure how/if he knew I needed that today, but that was a blessing.
Thank you for caring and walking beside me in this journey. It's tougher and longer than I'd like and than I expected. Because of the fact that people have their own lives to worry about, my plight has (seemingly and understandably) fallen off most folks' radars. Thank you for continuing with me. It means a ton.
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You are definitely NOT alone! and as much as our prayers and support matter, the best, one and true healing comfort you can ever receive is that coming from Him. He holds you right in the palm of His Holy Hand! Hold on tight! Love you guys!
You have NOT fallen off our radar! And God has not forgotten you. stay strong, brother.
Never off my radar. Always have you on my prayer list. There's no way one can forget your physical and seemingly emotional struggle you endure everyday. (Especially since I see how painful it is to walk down these halls) So glad Danny stopped by today. Here's to tomorrow being better.
We are praying for you every day, Chris. I can't imagine the struggle that it has been, but you are being lifted up by people all the time and, like the others have said, God has not forgotten you.
I read this a few weeks ago and have it posted by my computer, "If you look at David, there was a lot of honesty, there was a lot of negative emotions he expressed, but it seems there was almost always a "yet". I think you become cynical and jaded the moment you forget the "yet's"
I know it's horrible, yet He loves you and He is working.
You are not forgotten. Still praying and believing!
Thanks for taking the time to keep us updated, Chris. You are certainly not off our radar. Praying for some encouragement!
You are often on my mind, Chris. Still praying and still waiting for your healing.
Praying!
Definitely still standing beside you in thoughts and in prayer. Thanks for keeping us updated, Brother. We love you!
The Dellie
I found your blog through a link from Boundless.org and have bookmarked it and checked back a few times because I am also convinced that it is God's will to heal and that he has already paid the price for it! I just wanted to leave a word of encouragement as I can relate to your situation somewhat. I have had to come home for a time from the mission field to help care for my mom as she has been seeking healing from cancer for about 2 years now and has gone from chemo, to natural remedies, and back to chemo again.
I am wondering if you have ever heard of the International House of Prayer in Kansas City and the awakening services that are going on there? The Holy Spirit is moving and healings are happening like crazy. You can visit or watch the awakening services online at www.ihop.org. You might check it out; IHOP has been a huge enouragement to me.
Keep contending and God Bless!
Sarah Stehno
Omaha, Nebraska
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